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As we finally get closer to Vanuatu (not there yet but oh so close) the season seems to be changing in the air. The pieces are all starting to fall into place as they often do when God is orchestrating something. We are close enough that I am starting to have those feelings of overwhelming joy that we did not stop. This is not a testament to our greatness but a direct result of His. See all we have done is simple, we have trusted and been led like a little child. All we have done is say “yes” and obey, but if I were to be honest as I look back on our journey I would say one mystery has been solved to me. How many dreams for God are never realized because of our understanding of timing? How many have walked away saying this isn’t going to happen because they didn’t see it happening instead of hearing His voice say “it will come to pass”? How many times did I make it more difficult on myself because I got my eyes off of Christ and what He was telling me and looked at the seemingly impossible troubled waters around me? He has made all things lovely in His time, I fear it is the “in His time” part we often struggle with the most. It is confusing to try and understand it all in ourselves. The simplicity of just following and the complexity of it truly costing all as Missions has become our identity and we have become lost in it. Friends, family even acquaintances all carry you at a slight distance because your crazy life makes little sense to anyone not in it. You yourself question the process. Perhaps the hardest part for me was the fear of man’s opinion. A person who longs to work hard on a foreign field finding their self working hard to gain support of others has been the ultimate pill of pride to swallow. However being set a part while God burns out the old and creates the new, perfecting you for that exact work He has for you is not something we can understand in our flesh. The amount of work and time that goes into this entire process seems to fall under the whole “His ways are not our ways and His thoughts are not our thoughts” category. Never for a moment has God been in panic or worried about man’s opinions. God in His sovereignty has gently nudged many hearts to support His mission and has gently put us on the potter’s wheel in preparation for the task at hand. No doubt He has gently softened many hearts in Vanuatu who await our return to tell them the “Good News” There is another side to this too. What if we concentrated on ourselves and how insufficient we were rather than how complete He is? What if God nudged many to support us and they thought to do it, planned on doing it but never followed through on those intentions until the Holy Spirit walked away from their hearts as they turned a deaf ear to His voice? It takes obedience to reach the lost and it will always cost us something. Sometimes that looks like the finances to send some one, sometimes it is the pride to ask some one, many times it is our health and our very lives. Sometimes it is to simply speak up to those around us. The season is changing, I feel it coming and I don’t regret following Hi leading, something tells me there are a lot of children in Vanuatu who don’t regret those who have given so generously so they might be reached. Tonight I am thankful to God for continuing to carry us through this process. I am also thankful to those who continue to listen to His voice as He pricks their hearts to help us “go”.
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